A friend of mine, who I met through a run club, recently posted that she had been dwelling in the “remember when” stage of running. She had been struggling and could only focus on the past.
I can relate, because that’s where I’m at, too.
There used to be a time that I was thrilled to finish a race of any kind- 5K, 10K, Half and then a full marathon. While training for the first half and full, I celebrated each time I ran further. Running was full of celebration each time I accomplished something I could be proud of.
Then, I started getting faster. Blowing by each PR at every race I was doing. Again, so many celebrations.
Then I plateaued and started slowing down and it wasn’t fun anymore. Completing a long run or a race no longer felt like such an accomplishment and I began running less. Less often, less miles, less races.
I felt like a fraud once after another runner met up with me at the finish line and said “What was your time… Oh, I thought you were faster than that.”
Yeah, I know that he’s a jerk and that the running community is usually much more supportive of one another, but it stung.
Running got harder and then my husband and I decided to start a family. Running pregnant is really hard, but I’m still at it. It ain’t pretty, but I’m putting one foot in front of another. I’m averaging a 13-minute miles with several walk breaks. This is a new normal.
I plan to run a couple 5Ks this summer and set some “pregnant PRs.” And hopefully, by the grace of God, I’ll be able to find the time to invest in myself and get back at it with a newborn, or shortly after.
Running, like life, is a roller-coaster. It’s full of ups and downs. Little humps get in the way and sometimes you’re on top of the world and other times you’re in a deep valley.
Over my 31-years of life, running has been a priority and it has taken the back seat. This is just the beginning of my new normal and I’m learning to accept that. From here on, my running friend and I are going to focus on the present instead of the past.
Here we go!